Thursday, January 28

Something like power drills screwing through your skull

Get it? Ok, so I'm taking Diploma in Graphic Design (i still can't believe myself that im not a high school student ! i feel like im still so kecik :/ ) and tomorrow will be the day papa has to talk to Julie (one of the academic counselors in SEGi) about the payment and stuff.
At first, mama wanted me to amik TESL which is about language specifically, English. Den later, she asked me whether I'm interested or not, then I said I tak nak amik this course. At first she was like ok. Den later on, she bebel bebel and said smthng lke "why u tknk amik tesl je?! u igt u terror sgt nk amik course lain?! tesl is the easiest blablabla.."
Anddd papa pulak wanted and still wants me to amik Business & Management Studies (apa tah nama dia tp smthng like tht lah cm geddit?). Den I said "business? YA RABBI, tgk booklet je pn tk semangat. lagi la nk blaja. pa, this is nt my thing lah.."
Andd later on, ada this one night I heard my parents were talking behind ma back mcm discussed pasal courses sume ni lah. I didn't stalked them pon. Biar je lah :/

And soooo, since I gt what I wanted, I'm sure my mom, she will never supports me one. I mean she was like "since u dpt course yg u nak, kalau u fail, SIAP!".
I was like WHATHEFISH WEH. TAK RETI NAK SUPPORT AKU KE EVENTHOUGH AKU BUKAN ANAK KAU YANG BETUL!? Haih..kakak, you're so lucky.

And now I dh started to pening2 fikir what should I do cause I don't have my Seni sijil in SPM and semua ni, i mean like SEMUA NI, semua masalah pindah sekolah ni, semua salah mama dengan papa !!!!!!!!!!!! kalau tk, tk jadi masalah right?

Haihh sabar je lah. Be strong wawaa ! Aja aja fighting !

Monday, January 25

I would have killed to posses

Keisha (yes, that tik tok gurrrl) has a crazy weird story bout her dad and seems like I'm not the only one who's searching for my dad and.. my mom corzzz :/

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You know, whenever I think of the college life, I dont think I can go party here and there cse I might, no, I HAVE to study hard and obviously I have to sacrifice the major thing, which is, meeting Muammar Zzzzzzar T_T . It's so pathetic righhttt? but its ok, I have to do this for own goodness in the futureaah ! Yeaaah baby !
I really have t study cse I'm dying of cancer ok wtf hmph ok, truth, cause I'm dying whenever my mom lectures me cse you know she's a serial killer ok NOT. but yeaah, geddit? HMPH..ok turthfully, i think she hates me. she really does. I mean like I kene scold by her almost every day mann, who can tahan?! TELL ME GUYS! urghh I know they said tht "marah bukan kebencian tp kerna sayang" something like that? but heckkk no I dont believe in that ! I mean like for certain things oni lah hmph. and anywayy, ME LIKEY THAT SONG♥ hehehehe
I wnna go to ALFA College but its so far away (not really far but its quite a distance jgak okeng) frm my place and me mommy dont lemme go anywhere far frm our place so I might be furthering my studies in SEGi cse it's the nearest and my couzs (along & ya) and neighbour depan rumah (hairil) they study situ jgak so cm if theres any transport problemo I can tumpangg them one hehehe
I'm so scaaaared nk pgi college or university (kalau ada rezeki, insyaAllah). I went to SEGi just now, and saw these damn gurrrllzzz (chinese girls ;  not being racist or wtsoever bt yeaah but wait I AM NOT RACIST and i never was!) ok wtheck, these girls (ada bout 3 to 4 cliques) they were all dressed up mcm so like 'I'm-The-Queen-Here-Back-Off-You-Bitches' mcm dlm Mean Girls tuuu, geddit??! The way they walked ponn, ee bapak geli sssial, rasa mcm nk tarik je shorts tu bagi bogel. Dhla rambut bajet blonde soooo fake bleach je lebih! WEKS! hehehe :p

Saturday, January 23

Ramble All You Want

I had a dream about Muammar last night. The dream was different from the first dream that I had about him (that we ___ ___ ). This time it was so much sweeter and cuter that I missed him too much I cried. I can't tell the whole story sbb it's too long and complicated yet simple at the same time.
My favourite part of the dream : He had to leave cause my mom was in the same room so I hugged him. He whispered to me "Hey, I don't even know your name.." and I replied "Just call me Farah..". While I was thinking why on earth lah I tk bgtau my name ada wawa, he disappeared. HE DISAPPEARED WEH !! mcm tibatiba je. I almost cried, then I found his never-exist-nokia-handphone on the mini couch (that we used to play with it). I cried. I told myself that maybe this is a sign from God.

At 7.15 a.m., I woke up and cried (really cried ok) and I was like "A sign from god? whazzat suppose to meaaan..?". Hmph..maybe this song suits my situation :
Nobody by Wonder Girls

I want nobody nobody but you,
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody (but you Muammar, hehehe)

Ok, maybe just this part lah kot. Hmph, biar betul aku ni..? :/

Wednesday, January 20

In for the kill

Tadi ada navy blue colour van buruk ni, van tu tkd cermin depan pstu the driver plus two passengers sume duduk dkt front seats pstu the driver tu pki sleeveless top dgn pki cap terbalik pstu sume yg duduk dkt depan tu sume pakai rempit's shades. sumpa wa cakap lu, style gila (sebab van tu tkd cermin depan). rasa mcm nk pecahkan cermin kereta jugak (Y) hmph..

Thursday, January 14

You're killing me, killer


You're delusional

13033.) I love you, but I don't. I don't know what I want anymore and it's killing me.

Wednesday, January 13

Naive I Am

I'M SORRY.

I'm sorry, he's the one

I dont know what I'm thinking but I'm still jealous of you and I miss the song called She's The One by Robbie Williams and I miss them boys♥. I miss this season when I was so young (talking shit like imma 80 y/o or smthng).


The English class was . . fine.

Saturday, January 9

Save me from the dark

I had a weeeeird dream last night. It all started when a group of kd rempitz stalked me in the toilet in a kampung (the kampung ws even more weird ! ive never been to such place and its so creeeepy). Zuraida was in action too! I mean we jadi the victim of those rempz lh. Then, in order to revenge la katakan we decided to chase all those mamats till we came to ths place, a wiiiiide field covered with flowers yg mcm kat farmville tu yg daffodil? apa tah smthng lke tht lh kan then cm tgh lari2 tu den came to ths field ttba we stopped and stunned, duadua cm "WHOAAAA LAWANYA WEHHHH..", den those mamats disappeared and I was so frustrated that I cried and I said smthng like "zuee, kalau aku dpt mamat tu mmg aku kenekan habis2 *sob sob*"

den ttba I saw those mamats kt atas pokok like a daaaaamn huge tree. they were all lepaking on the apa ni, treehouse eh panggil? ha cmtulah..treehouse tu dia punya ground mmg besar gila nk mati. den a bunch of guys kt situ stared at us den we both gt freaked out. gang dia seriously ramai2 gila cm dalam LOTR tu. den we saved ourselves by runnng to ths old abandoned hse and once we stepped into the house, the house turned out to be my old house in terengganu. den we ran somemore, gt into my room. the room seemed to be smaller than the actual size. and all those things kt dlm room tu jd kecik, its like we both were giants or smthng, mcm Alice in Wonderland -______-'

den we locked ourselves inside the room and 'felt save'. den ttba ada ths dude knocked the goddamn door and he didn't sound like a rempit (does rempitz have sounds?!! wahhaha), so we decided to open the door andddd guess who's the dude??? jeng jeng jengggg *drum roll please* it wasssss..
Sukhjit. Yes, Sukhjit (i dnt even knw if im spelling it rhgt but yeaah tht dude in 5A? kot? hehe) but he looks more like a Pakistanese (ada ke term tu!?!?) with curly hair !! den out of the blue, Skuhjit turned out to be FRODO in LOTR !!!
Yeaah Frodo the cutesy with greeny eyes tu, yeaah so truee :)

Den Frodo suggested us to confront the dudes and den we gt out frm the room and finally it was so peaceful sbb the dudes gone edi and my place jadi mcm the place where Robbert Pattinson and Kirsten Stewart had their photoshoot for the Twilight tu..den kitorng relieved sgtsgt den ttba while I ws standing at the main door of my hse I saw Feyl, yes Afella, and I ran to her and she put smthng on her head smthng like scarf tp mcm tk, cm tahla. den i waved goodbye to her and said "fella, ckp gdluck dkt fendi" and I made the -_-' face. The wish maybe sbb Fend ttba mimpi apa nk pgi audition tu smpi I termimpi *sweats -_-'* haih..

Feyl was gone, smwhre idk disappeared maybe, tah hehe. And I saw Razlan (yes, it ws kau Lan) and I hugged and thanked him for saving us (padahal dia tkd pn ttba muncul dlm kayangan tahpape) and lastly, I turned my head and I was at the field yg covered with daffodils tu and saw many kids cm cooomel sgtsgt my couzzz were there too ! and tina too ! and nani too! but sumaiyah, no.. ahha mmg banyak sgt budak2 kecik comelllll!! they were holding hands and running here and there, the girls pki white dressed with the flowers kt hair just like the flower girls fr the wedding tu ! YEAAH :D, and them boyssss kasi flowers kt them girlsss SHOMELLLL..

and because of the freaky weird nice dream, I woke up at 06.40 am. Satan..





Them kids mcm ni lah just the fact tht they were in those cute dresses and flowers on hair and stuff (I had to google for ths pics totaakkk) :p

Thursday, January 7

Woopsy Part 3

I have to change the font size, sakit mata aku -____-'

Woopsy Part 2

Apasal font size ni bapak besar orang rabun pon macam bole baca kot !?

Woopsy

The previous post has a spelling error, I just realised it this morning he he he it's 'clutch', not 'cludge'. HEHEHE I'm so maluuuu :p


Pete Wentz a.k.a me ex boyfie (tipu sunat) tweets a lot. Ok, this is sooo random.


Hmph what else..? I think I need to sharpen my skill in driving soooo I might be driving my dad's kereta buruk (it's manual sooo it's good for meee !! YEAY MEEE !) buttt I need someone to guide me.. T_T anyone..?

Wednesday, January 6

One life for sure

Tadi first time bawak kereta. LIKE A REAL KERETA and it was sooo exciting and and and penaaaaaat sgt sgt sebab nk pusing steering tu bapak ketat and the cludge pedal dan pedal sebagainya and luckily I didn't hit any of the tiang ! The most difficult part was naik bukit the engine mati quite a few times. Shiiiizzz.. Wheeee :)

Monday, January 4

Screaming me your baby






Ok, tak tipu. Rindu nak sekolah. Bukan rindu sekolah ok.

Tear drops everywhere



Yes, thats me in my class t-shirt. Asal tk tunjuk muka? Sebab muka baru bangun tido, tk mandi lagi. Gosok gigi je, oops kantoi ok wtf wawa. Irna, ya told me dia suka baju ni and dia cm KAGUM gila sbb ada birthdate aku kt blakang shirt ni. Pstu dia cakap ee best la kau. den aku cm ha apa kene dgn kau ya. Aku bising2 dekat dia and now I'm missing her like shit. Ya, balik cepat ok. We gotta party.



*I gotta admit this, I miss school. Shiznit..
** Gamba ni fresh ok, taken on Jan 4th 2010.

Do not hesitate

Selamat bersekolah adik-adik! Hargailah masa persekolahan anda.



*Feels weird not going to school :/

Sunday, January 3

Between fantasy and what's real

You know, its kind of hard to believe this..but I'm 18 y/o maaaan !! I know lah not officially since my birthday's in August but who cares !? 18 man, EIGHTEEEEEEN ME LIKEEE ♥
PARTY HARD PEOPLE!!
HUGS & KISSES.